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well no one reads my blog anymore

2009-04-23T21:32:00.000-07:00

so i'm gonna go and say whatever i want.

my shins hurt. my abs hurt. my calves hurt. my whole body is so happy because i've been working out every day. and i'm proud of myself because i've never enjoyed exercising until recently. it makes me feel about a thousand times better once i get into it.

i actually liked what i was wearing today. black jeans, black boots, purple sweater, his t-shirt (i put it in the dryer and it shrunk... he doesn't know).

oh, and i think i hate blogspot.

anastasia- i love your kitchen.

exhaustion.

2009-03-24T21:04:00.000-07:00

this 800 minute long drum solo on wuag is about to give me a migraine.

my tummy feels so empty.

i live in an atheist generation

2009-03-14T00:29:00.000-07:00

but i'd rather stand for something than stand for nothing.

oh my god

2009-03-10T19:58:00.000-07:00

today my sister looked at what i was wearing, laughed in my face, and then quickly said sorry. and i thought family was supposed to be a positive thing.

also, i got dinner plans cancelled... three times. three different sets of dinner plans. three different cancellations. three times.

but, on the bright side, i got a pair of guess by marciano black heels on clearance at the place who wouldn't hire me. i guess when i don't get love, i get shoes. HA!

i'm such a bummer.

spring cleaning

2009-02-25T20:07:00.000-08:00

i still have a cold. i cleaned out my drawers today. i do this pretty often actually. by clean out i mean i take things out that i don't wear a lot and put them in my closet to make more room in my drawers for things i actually do wear. so i don't have to search my floor for them every morning before school. i have a lot of clothes. i have a LOT of clothes that i don't wear but can't donate. i don't need them. but i keep feeling like some day i will, so i keep them. it's a very, very bad practice to get into.

i have to wake up in less than seven hours. the time stamp on this blog isn't right. i can't figure out how to fix it.

i feel like i'm on the brink of undergoing a massive transition. i'm going to be jobless again very soon. i'm moving out of the house i've been in for almost nine years. these are big changes that make me think the earth is going to start rotating differently, or something. i don't know. i'm growing up and it's not much fun.

but i'm not unhappy at all. i'm actually in a mostly content place right now. i'm actually studying for the first time, and making decent grades. i have a pretty good feel for what i want to do with my life. i have a few friends, but they're people i actually like being around for a change. i was getting about 20 hours a week at my job, until i found out today that the place i work at is closing. i feel weird about it, i feel like i'm getting broken up with... like i'm breaking up with my job. that's the weird feeling i have towards the situation.

obviously i'm very tired right now because i'm saying the same sentence over and over.

anyway, for now, the pros outweigh the cons.

also i need sleep.

my immune system hates me.

2009-02-17T16:50:00.000-08:00

i studied for chemistry til 11pm

i didn't sleep last night

i had an 8am class today

i've been coughing all day

my ears are full of pressure

my throat hurts

my head hurts

my joints hurt

my neck hurts

my skin hurts

my whole entire body hurts.

but at least at the end of the day, i have someone to make me tea and nap with me.

my metabolism hates me

2009-02-05T11:31:00.000-08:00

my hard working week is finally over, my weekend is ready to commence! although, in all honesty, it probably won't for a day or two. but my long day that i dread all week is over. this is how it went (warning: quintessential yet typical blog moment ensues): 6am-alarm goes off. 8am-chemistry class. 9:30am-muffin/coffee/studying. 11am-nutrition through the life cycle (+ pop quiz). 12:30pm-chemistry lab, aka i don't know how to do any of this.

i need food.

hard work.

2009-01-31T09:14:00.000-08:00

i'm at work right now and i'm on my break and i'm sitting at a little table and there is a misplaced blender sitting behind my laptop. i spent most of this morning reading Us Weekly behind the counter and it was a sincerely enriching experience. i know so much about famous people that i never needed to know. i also decided that i MUST take pilates, i MUST do a power cleanse, and i absolutely MUST paint my fingernails rainbow leopard print like lindsay lohan. i also measured the circumference of my waist.

that's how boring work is sometimes.

too much science

2009-01-22T06:33:00.000-08:00

getting a college degree better be worth waking up at 6am three times a week. i'm so hungry and i have an hour and a half before my next class.

it's too early to blog.

nothing is practical

2009-01-20T20:44:00.000-08:00

nothing is spoken for, nothing is complete, nothing is final. playing games is so three years ago. this is what i want:

something that is sure and unshakable and doubtless.

besides that, my nose is bleeding and there's a cramp in my stomach. lately my stomach gets upset whenever i do. that's unrelated. i'm not upset; i'm way too apathetic to be upset right now. classes started today, and so did the winter weather. there is nothing like a brush with death to make the 7am drive to school that much more exciting. i'm exaggerating.

tonight i'm probably going to wake up in the middle of the night for a drink of water or something. i've started doing that for the first time in eighteen years. i'm becoming an old lady very, very fast.

i only care about one thing right now: